Days Of My Life
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Long time no see
Sunday. 10.24.04 10:09 am
It's been a while since I've written on here. I've been doodling in other diary sites, but I guess I kinda like this one. Update? Well... I'm now attending GRCC. Yay me. I actually like it. More so than high school anyways. Nick and I are still together. However, I am mad at him, but I haven't told him yet. I will soon though. I was going to tell him last night but nobody answered the phone. :( He's still homeless. It breaks my heart to see it too. It really does. It makes me want to cry. It's winter now and he still sleeps in his car when he has no other place to go, and Dad won't let him stay with us. I hate it, but there's nothing I can do about it.
Just don't know what to do with myself...
Monday. 8.9.04 9:23 am
I don't know what's wrong with me... Over the last few days I've been down and depressed. It's not my period. That ended yesterday, and it's not like PMS. It's like... Blah... Ya know? That feeling where you just want to die? Or at least crawl away from everybody and just be on your own and read a book.
I think I know why I'm down though... A couple things mixed with bipolar...
I have to call the Enumclaw branch of Green River Community College. I need to take my compass placement test SOON. I have college starting this fall. EeEeEeKkKk!!!
PS... I need to quit smoking cigarettes too... And I wonder where all my money is going. A pack a day? $5 a day? Dayum...
Baby blues... :(
Friday. 7.23.04 11:46 am
I finally got a hold of Nick. I don't think he wanted me to get a hold of him. He didn't seem like he wanted to talk to me. Even yesterday, it seemed like he didn't really want to be around me. And when I just talked to him on the phone, it seemed he didn't want me to be anywhere around him for today. He was like, "We might go to the lake tonight at midnight." I go, "Okay." And he goes, "But you can't come." I dunno what that was about, but whatever. I'm gonna call CJ, see what she's doing. Maybe Josh or something. I dunno. Who cares?
So... I guess Nick is getting tired of me. That sucks. I don't want to be without him. But... I guess he can do whatever he wants. Even if it is to stop loving me. I'll never stop loving him though.
You know, I'm probably just over-reacting, but it was just really weird. Nick is usually like, "I'm gonna go to the lake, ya wanna come with?" Not... "I'm going to the lake but you can't come." He's never been like that before. Who knows...
My Grandpa is GENIOUS
Friday. 7.23.04 7:26 am
Hopefully gonna go to the lake today. Probably drinking tonight, so that should be fun. Dad gave me $25 early this morning before he went to work. So I can even buy a pack of smokes too. I'm painting my nails right now. They've got clear polish so far, but I'm gonna put this clear purpley glitter color on it. Nevermind, I can't get the cap off. Looks like they'll stay clear, haha. Whatever.
Yesterday I hung out with Nick for the 1st half of the day, then we went to Keith's, then Nick went to work, and I hung out with Keith for a while. Garret stopped by and conversated with us for a bit. Then I went with Keith to Mike's, and we smoked a blunt, picked up Katie from Emerald Downs (A horse race track), then came back and smoked another blunt and played thirteens. When we were at Emerald Downs, I was looking at the building. I noticed all the speakers and everything. My grandpa is a genious. I can't believe he installed that soundsystem. Not only installed it, but designed it too. He's so smart and so good when it comes to technical stuff. Hopefully one day I'll be up to his level. Or at least be able to have some bragging rights. I know my grandpa and the whole SDA church brags about me, which is funny. They all know about all the stupid shit I do. But they all know I'm good at PA and AV work. A little bit of drugs, drinking, and crap never stopped that. I mean, when new people saw me working at graduation and campmeeting, they were like, "Hey kid, don't touch that stuff." And Mike would be like, "No, that's Liz, she can do what she wants to the system, she knows what she's doing." That feels good to be up there with the PA guys. They've all practically raised me. It's like they're all a bunch of uncles or something. We all have the same quirky sense of humor too. More like lame sense of humor. Mike will be on the microphone and be like, "Mic check 1, 2. Get it? Mike? Mic?" I'd just be like, "Real funny Mike, that's the oldest joke, you over used it. It's only funny to people who don't know you." We just pick on each other so much, but get the deed done. Ya know... Good stuff.
I wonder when Nick's gonna get here. He usually shows up here first thing in the morning. But then again, it is 7:49, lol. I'm gonna go read my book now though. The Poet. It's a good book so far.
I need BC! :-P
Sunday. 7.18.04 11:29 pm
Had a fun weekend up at Mike's with Keith, Mike, Nick, and Katie. Got drunk.
Dad bitches about me not coming home. Why? So I could come home and be bored and pissed as fuck? Whatever. I found this quote from Tupac. "I smoke a blunt to take the pain out. And if I wasn't high, I'd probably try to blow my brains out." So true.
Yea, I'm bored now, at home. Go figure. Tomorrow I can't forget to call that tanning place.
I need to get birth control. I really do. It scares me that Nick and I will have unprotected sex. I mean, I don't say anything though. Maybe I should. I don't know, I'm just confused. I'm gonna put a bunch of stuff in my reading room. Take a look.
Friday. 7.16.04 9:18 am
Alright, I'm awake. Hopefully today I can manage to scrounge up some money so we can have fun at Mike's. I wanna go to the lake. Hopefully we can. I wonder where Nick is now. He's supposed to be here. Ahh well. I'm getting drunk tonight. Yay.
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